I always want to start with a positive note. So let me start with "OM".
Haha this is how i used to begin answering my question papers in exams!!!. Because i was scared of questions.
In my life so far i am always scared of one or the other things. This made me the person i am today.I call myself a good actor.Let me tell you how.
when i was a kid i remember i used to play a lot with my friends who are all of my age only [If you play with elders chances of you getting sidelined is more :) ]i used to play outdoor games more, where we used to break the glass windows of the neighbors, or used to beat a younger kid in our team, or get beaten from others. My mother used to get angry for all the complaints by neighbors, and used to beat me up for the all the mistakes of others because being an elder among kids in your family comes with a baggage of taking responsibilities for all the mistakes of others , need not to mention you are the first one to get beaten from your parents.
So i stopped playing outdoor games just because i was scared of my mother beating me up. I stopped playing cricket at the age of 15!!! where the other kids enjoy playing it at this age.
I started coming home soon after my schools, and never go out, sit at home and read (rather mug up)the chapters thereby scoring good marks and impress teachers !!!.[ at very young age i started living for others :( ]
Yes even at schools i was scared of teachers, because of the fear of DISRESPECT. why teachers give respect to only those who score well in exams? why not to those who sing well, dance well or do good drawing?
May be in India we can not earn our living so easily through singing, dancing or drawing.
Bull shit you get respect depending on your bank balance.
ok fear of disrespect made me a reader ,i used to read all the books which are accessible to us through school. I started liking fiction books. Because you can tell lies. OMG i like fiction just because its not real. I started liking all fake things.
Yes i am a fake person, I am an actor.
I acted like a good son, acted like a good student, acted like a good friend, acted like a good colleague.
Enough i can not act anymore. I want to be real.
I want to lead my life the way i want it to be.Hope my wife likes this. Oh god i can not come out of this impressing others business. I will be actor throughout my life i guess :(.
Haha this is how i used to begin answering my question papers in exams!!!. Because i was scared of questions.
In my life so far i am always scared of one or the other things. This made me the person i am today.I call myself a good actor.Let me tell you how.
when i was a kid i remember i used to play a lot with my friends who are all of my age only [If you play with elders chances of you getting sidelined is more :) ]i used to play outdoor games more, where we used to break the glass windows of the neighbors, or used to beat a younger kid in our team, or get beaten from others. My mother used to get angry for all the complaints by neighbors, and used to beat me up for the all the mistakes of others because being an elder among kids in your family comes with a baggage of taking responsibilities for all the mistakes of others , need not to mention you are the first one to get beaten from your parents.
So i stopped playing outdoor games just because i was scared of my mother beating me up. I stopped playing cricket at the age of 15!!! where the other kids enjoy playing it at this age.
I started coming home soon after my schools, and never go out, sit at home and read (rather mug up)the chapters thereby scoring good marks and impress teachers !!!.[ at very young age i started living for others :( ]
Yes even at schools i was scared of teachers, because of the fear of DISRESPECT. why teachers give respect to only those who score well in exams? why not to those who sing well, dance well or do good drawing?
May be in India we can not earn our living so easily through singing, dancing or drawing.
Bull shit you get respect depending on your bank balance.
ok fear of disrespect made me a reader ,i used to read all the books which are accessible to us through school. I started liking fiction books. Because you can tell lies. OMG i like fiction just because its not real. I started liking all fake things.
Yes i am a fake person, I am an actor.
I acted like a good son, acted like a good student, acted like a good friend, acted like a good colleague.
Enough i can not act anymore. I want to be real.
I want to lead my life the way i want it to be.Hope my wife likes this. Oh god i can not come out of this impressing others business. I will be actor throughout my life i guess :(.
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